My brain: "THERE'S SOMEONE FOLLOWING ME IN RUSSIA?!!?!?!"
(Hi, if you're reading this, by the way...)
Me: I guess the Interwebs is a way bigger place than I ever thought... *feels very small and insignificant some more*
Okay, done with the feels. I want to talk about how bad of a student I have been so far this school year. Granted, I don't have a hella lots of homework so far, but I have a decent amount, and compared to how I usually handle my homework, I've been doing an abysmal job thus far.
But Sam! It's only the 17th of September, this is the beginning of YOUR SECOND FULL WEEK OF SCHOOL, why are you spazzing out about this?
Because I can.
I think Ireland (see the other blog that has WAY CRAZY LOTS OF PAGE VIEWS) changed the perfectionist in me. Scratch that, I think Ireland fed the perfectionist in me until it wasn't a teeny tiny monster anymore, it was a raging lunatic. But, when I was in Ireland, it was okay to be a perfectionist and be overly prepared for things because I had the time and the inclination to do so.
Minnesota life, however, is not nearly as forgiving. It's much more interesting to hang out with my friends and watch movies and do puzzles and go out for drinks instead of doing homework. And even when I do homework now, it's not a solitary thing, and I don't get as much done as I would in Ireland.
And I guess I find that upsetting, now that I've taken the time to figure out what it was that was bothering me so much. I'm stressing myself out because I'm having too much fun.
Arguments against: 1) THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS TOO MUCH FUN *rocks out*.
Rebuttal: 1) um yes there is. If I feel like I'm getting an ulcer when I think about my homework, I'm having too much fun.
Arguments against: 2) you're actually not as far behind as you think you are.
Rebuttal: 2) I guess that's valid. But, feel free to tell that to my nervous system -- so far, it hasn't believed me either.
Arguments against: 3) stop being crazy.
Rebuttal: 3) oh if only.
Yes, I'm already to the point of arguing with myself. It's going to be a good year, friends.
In related news, I wish I were watching 'Fringe' instead of sitting in the very cold library, waiting for a phone call. The phone call part is going to be awesome, but the waiting part means I'm reasoning out why I shouldn't start my homework yet. And that's winding me up even more.
But 'Fringe'.
In other news, I'm making myself take the time to write again, so I'm not totally out of shape come November. You'll be hearing a lot of complaining on this blog come November, methinks. I'm going to try to win again, and I think I can do it, now that I did it last year... but I'm also super busy stressing myself out about crazy things, so we'll see how it goes.
Okay, almost phone call time. This is my cue to stop rambling...
-S
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